Serenity In An Open Space

*Thoughts that ran through my head while outdoors at PERMATA during Mega Challenge, 4th July 2007*

They stand in a row before me, mere shadows in the twilight hour before night falls , their backs facing me, their faces turned towards qiblat.

At times they stand, arms crossed before them. At times they kneel, foreheads touching their prayer mats.

A moment shared in faith, but yet still a private moment with God.

A full moon in the blue-black sky completes the picture before me.

We may be of different faith, but the feeling of peace and serenity one gets from prayer (even if one is just a mere observer) crosses all boundaries.

Unpacking

I always take the longest time unpacking.

Normally my suitcase of clothes and stuff will lie in my room for days, maybe even a week before I unpack everything.

Maybe it's just my way to keep that moment last longer, who knows?

Missing The Noise

Entry scribbled in my ROTI BALDEP notebook in Room 309, Paka Residence Resort, 11th July 2007.

In a few days' time, it will be time to say goodbye.

3 weeks...3 weeks.

Remember when we were in AIESEC , and a 3 days' conference like LLDS will create such a strong bond among us that at the end of LLDS saying goodbye could be a positively tears'-inducing event?

Well, imagine if you were to spend not 3 days, but 3 weeks with each other...?

I will miss...

I wll miss talking to you before I sleep...

I will miss having you look for my shoulder to lean on when you're tired...

I will miss looking up from my notes and finding you looking at me with that loopy smile on your face...

I will miss subconsciously knowing that you are looking at me, but being too shy to actually avert my gaze to meet your eyes...

I will miss linking my arms through yours...

I will miss you calling me "sayang" and "ba-by"....

But most of all...

I will miss the noise you make.

The noise that greets me during mealtimes, before, during and after classes, on the bus...

...the noise that tells me that I am not alone, the noise that tells me I am among friends, the noise that tells me I belong.

"Guess I miss you beautiful, these three words just say it all...."

- "I Miss You", Darren Hayes

*Image taken while I was in Redang , June 07*

Love Letter

Entry scribbled on my ROTI BALDEP notebook while standing in the control room of the Kerteh Onshore Gas Terminal, 12th July 2007...


"Someone you don't even know exists in this world loves you with all their heart..."

I've always thought of this quote as a sweet, if somewhat wistful thought, but today, I was hit HARD by the realization that, yes, it seems that it has happened to me.

I am Loved =).

*Jess still can't decide whether to laugh at the sheer absurdity of it all, or to cry at the irony ...funny how life's little quirks always come at the most unexpected of moments, and from the people you least expect it from...but I suppose that's what makes it memorable ;).....*

Thank you YOU, for being such a dear.......=)

Hours Before The Blues

I'm home.

After being away from home and office for 3 whole weeks for my Induction Programme (nope I have NOT switched jobs...it just took me awhile to get releasability to join the programme that's all =p), I am home.

It's late, and I should be getting some sleep since I'm working tomorrow, but just thought I'd get get some offline entries up online, and who knows, perhaps subconsciously I'm just trying to stretch this moment, the end of the last 3 weeks last as long as possible....

...because I'm sure, the moment I open my eyes from slumber in a few hours' time, I will be suffering from one of the worst case of Monday blues ever =o/........

"Why do all good things come to an end, come to an end...?"
- "All Good Things", Nelly Furtado