Mortality

A colleague passed away today. He was taken by illness.

It's funny even now I can't really tell for sure what illness it was because he refused to tell us, he refused to make the matter a big deal, and I guess I refused to know too, I figured I'll just ask him when he gets well and come back.

He was my sister's age, 4 years older than me.

What does one do when faced with imminent mortality?

I don't even dare to cry because I didn't know him that well, so who am I to cry when his loved ones must be going through the darkest period of their lives right now, and all they have to show for their sorrows are tears as well?

Counting Down The Days

"I wanna travel through time,

see your surprise,

hold you so tight,

I'm counting down the days tonight,

I just want to be

A million miles away from here..........."

Just a couple more days and I will finally get a break! Oh I am so so so so so so in an on leave mood now:P....Haha I know that my most recent leave was just a few weeks ago on that "rush hour" trip to Penang to see Khoon before he left for US, but that visit doesnt really count because out of the 4 days, I think I spent around 1 and half for travelling :(...

Like most of my breaks, there will be a certain amount of travelling involved in this break as well(that's what happens when you're living on my side of the world:P) so I guess it won't be a physically re-energizing kind of break (I hardly have one actually now that I think of it:P Every break I will be gallivanting "overseas" to see Khoon so...:P), but I sure hope its a visit that will enrich me emotionally...the kind that renews your faith and hope in people, in love, in life....:)

This time around, I plan to...

- Bask in the laughter, hugs & affection of my sayang and close friends and change my status of "Sendirian Berhad" to "Jess & Co" temporarily ( It's a lonely life here in Miri tis true....)

- Go ShoPpinG!!! (Missing my old haunts too :P)

- Satisfy my food cravings...every time I go to Peninsula Malaysia I will make a mental list of food I want to eat...right now I'm thinking sushi, Secret Recipe, Dunkin' Donuts, some good old mamak food (it will always be the food most reminiscent of my uni days and they are hard to come by in Miri), some spicy Tom Yam or Ikan Bakar (I love Singgah Selalu's), nasi lemak maybe, STARBUCKS!!! hahaa the list goes on and on...but most recently I acquired a craving for THIS, which I had as lunch in KL Sentral on my way to see Khoon a few weeks ago...

Starbucks' Sirens's Salad (heavenly music in the background:P)

It serves so much better as food you can actually eat, instead of being just a pretty picture heheh...and I think it's the first time that I am actually craving a higly concentrated amount of vegetables, so that can't be such a bad thing right?;)

Ahhh can't wait can't wait can't wait!!!:)

Blur King

I stood speechless in my local Popular store as I saw the gift wrap hanging in front of me.

My sayang has been immortalized in, of all things, a gift wrap ! (see picture attached)



The Frog Prince + the "I'm Blur King!" statement + The Sleeping Pose (see left hand corner of the picture) = Ah Khoon!!!:P

Hahahhahahah so za dao:P

*Khoon asked me to buy ALL of the gift wraps from Popular to prevent others from getting their hands on it :P*

Idealist

Any employer would be lucky to have me, because when a staff makes mistakes, I get angry, why?

BECAUSE I EXPECT THE BEST FROM PEOPLE.
BECAUSE EVERYDAY WITHOUT FAIL I FIGHT JADEDNESS THE BEST I CAN.
BECAUSE NO MATTER WHAT KIND OF WORDS USED TO DESCRIBE ME (NAIVE,IDEALIST, TOO HONEST), I STILL BELIEVE IN SINCERITY AND I EXPECT TO BE TREATED THE SAME WAY.
BECAUSE NO MATTER HOW OLD I GET, I PLAN AND HOPE TO ALWAYS RETAIN MY FAITH IN PEOPLE.

Am I too idealist? Naive? Honest?

Maybe, but I don't care.

Because when the world deals you with a blow you will think of people like me, and despite your initial disregard of me, you will find yourself wishing there were MORE people like me.

Rainy Days

I can't seem to shake off this sadness in me for the past few days, and I don't know why...

Ephite.

I Blew It :(

http://www.travelandlivingasia.com/5takes/casting/.

I really don't know whether I uploaded my video up or not last night. I kept trying and trying but everytime after the upload page finished loading the message "this page cannot be displayed" will appear. Haha blame me for doing it last minute...and after I went to the trouble of borrowing a video camera and all that too.....I mean yeah of course I keep telling and telling myself how slim my chances are because you never know how many gazillions of people are trying out for the show but then again I still can't help but be disappointed that my name's not there....

Sigh....it's just been a really really tiring day. Maybe its PMS but I just feel highly irritated right now...probably started last night when I couldn't upload my video, and then rushing for the all the paperwork involved in the process of accepting a new job offer....I really really hate rushing for things, especially for something as important as a career change, and as of now things are not settled yet so the scrambled mess in my mind is still there...

Gosh I so need a hug right now :'(

I miss talking to my sayang too..... :'( :'( :'(

*Gnarls Barkley's "Crazy" keeps playing in my mind....*

Right at this moment, just wishing for....
...a warm hug from a close friend (family and colleagues just can't provide the same warmth)
...encouraging words somewhere along the lines of "That travel channel dunno what they are missing :P"
...an sms invite saying "Wanna yumcha tonight? I fetch you :) "

Sigh...and another sad news...our house cat passed away last week because of illness...during his last few days he was already refusing to eat...sigh...hope meow meow is happy in meow meow heaven....

Ngiammy & Me :)

Me & Ngiammy at Restoran Talipon (serious that's the name!:P), Kelana Jaya - August 2006

Me & Ngiammy at Ming Tian, Subang - April 2006

See the similarities in both pictures? :P Haha even the yellow t-shirt is the same ;)

Sigh...Despite Ngiammy always being adamant about keeping his 2.5km distance from me every time we meet (and likewise my determination to ALWAYS sit beside him everytime I see him:P), it is still always a joy just to share a meal together and hear the usual Ngiammish banter :)...

Sayang you Ngiammy (hahah doesn't it just irk you that you cannot delete this entry?:P)

My New Backpack :)

My new blue backpack =D. Nope, not travelling anywhere anytime soon, but it was on sale, and I figured (and hope) that there will come a time in the future when I will need it :) It is 75 litres, which is a little bit over than what I can actually carry but I'll just have to remind myself not to stuff it full the next time I use it then ahaha:P It was actually suppose to be a "Buy 1 Free 1" item, but as it was the last one left, the tauke just sold it at half price (which is the same price that you will get it for anyway if you bought it at the original price and got another free one:P). Sigh...and I was thinking that me & Khoon can get couple backpacks ahahah :P...sorry sayang no go, but it's a good excuse to go shopping together right?;)

Till I See You Again...

My sayang leaves for US today on two months' training .....sigh...Aside from the South China Sea, now we have both the Indian Ocean and Atlantic Ocean separating us:P...


Have a safe flight sayang...I'll miss you a lot and really hope can see you again soon...:)

Shit

The previous post was all about some not-so-good things happening to me.

Maybe it's the law of karma, but I see signs of this month being a very very busy, but very very full of opportunities month for me.

I just hope that I won't get swept away in the upheaval of it all.

Not telling anything because I don't want to jinx it, but if any of you reading this cares, keep your fingers crossed on my behalf that my upcoming posts might bring good news of positive changes in my life:)

PS : Why is this blog titled "shit" by the way? Because that's my usual exclamation when something unbelievably good happens to me (like when we got into Brandstorm Finals ahahah:P) So here's hoping there will be more "shit" to come:P